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This is one of my venues for therapy. I live too much in my head so I have strong feelings about everything and nothing. So this is my venting place.

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

I guess ignoring "Michelle" paid off because yesterday we spent some time together. In fact it was the most time we've spent together in a long time.

This usually happens when I try to phase someone out of my life.

I don't want to sound like this was some sort of plan. I originally thought that "Michelle" liked me but I tlaked that notion out of my head, as I do with almost every good idea that pops into my head. Thanks Dave.

So. I went about moving on from the "Michelle Situation." Which includes ignoring her when she is in the gym but not directly in fornt of me. When she is in front of me I give non-verbal responses to her greetings and/or questions. Mature? Of course not, but what can I do?

Anyway, as I am working out, I notice that she is in the gym.

I always look for her when I'm in the gym, and feel excited when I see her, even now as I try to "end it."

Time passes and as I finsh my cardio she comes up to me and starts a conversation. This was weird for me becasue of my childish attempt to "move on." And I started to react as such.

But the next thing I know I'm inviting myself along on her trip to Subway.

So, we go walking along 86th St (if you've seen the train chase in the French Connection, then you know 86th St.) talking the whole time. From there we went to a couple of corner stores looking for diet soda for her dad. After we find a suitable drink at a Rite Aid we continue walking to her apartment building. I had a great time and we learned more about each other.

I just really enjoyed spending time with her and I would like to do it again.

There's only one problem; I just don't know when that will be.

And that's one of the problems I have with her.

Or maybe it's my problem.

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