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Life is a strange, interesting thing.

Two years ago I would have killed to have the experiences that I've had the past three months.

I've had two relationships with two different yet extremely attractive women begin and end.

Two years ago I had nothing happening with anyone.

And today I kind of wished that it was two years ago.

But it is not and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Both relationships have taught me a valuable lesson.

If you can't love the one you want then love the one you're with!

Snoogins!

Just kidding.

Anyway

The Real Lessons I Learned...

#1 - I need to stop dwelling on the past three months (and the past in general) and look to the future with all the new women that I'm going to meet.

#2 - What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

#3 - I need to change my thinking patterns and become a more positive person.

#4 - And Finally I need to be very weary of any woman that I feel that "spark" for. Two times I have felt that "spark" and both times I've been burned.

Thinking of that last lesson I feel that I may be a little doomed in my relationships.

I have this belief that when you meet someone you should feel that "spark" which let's you know that you should get to know this woman.

When I don't feel that I don't give my all to the person that I've met.

But when I do, look out.

I will move heaven and earth to make things work.

Well, in theory.

In practice, I usually get depressed and second guess the woman's feelings till she fulfills my negative self fulfilling prophecy and breaks up with me.

Hence, what happened on Halloween.

So now I know where to begin to improve my life.

And yesterday I didn't have a clue about any of this.

See, life is a strange, interesting thing.